The Partying Experience - Full Figured Version

Where There's No Love

In the scenario where there is no self-love, you will find a girl (let's call her "Pretty-Plus") always partying in the company of skinny friends. It's not necessarily because the skinny friend wants a larger friend around to make herself look better (even though we all know this happens). But it's more because the ignorant beautiful plus sized person (Pretty-Plus) does not see the beauty in herself, sees fat as "ugly" and therefore, sees other plus sized people as "ugly". Who really wants to identify with "ugly"?

Pretty-Plus ends up picking a very boring or very expsosive outfit to go dancing in. Her mind set? I won't be noticed by any guys if I don't show off my assets/I will just look stupid if I even tried to look as hot as her (her = skinny friend). She goes, she barely dances, barely gets noticed and ends the night thinking... "FML, I will likely end up alone."

Where There's Much Love

Pretty-Plus has friends of every shape and size. She begins to live her life to the fullest, surrounded by family, friends and guys who just really want her number. She goes dancing because she wants to. She dances the night away turning down every idiot that thinks he can just press up on her because she probably has low self esteem. Pretty-Plus is the center of attention, her friends are all trying to imitate her dance steps, skinny and un-skinny friends alike... She enjoys herself and glorifies her God in her dressing, dancing and in her radiant smile.

Do you know the best thing about each night she goes dancing??? Pretty-Plus goes to bed having burnt 1,000 calories, having released her happy hormones and one step closer to the perfect weight for her.

Self Loved Pretty Plus says:

XOXO,
Buxom Beauty

Growth & Goals (216 lbs)

It's been a while since I blogged, but not so long since 230 lbs. Most days there is still the fear that the weight is coming back, and honestly, I have found that I still fluctuate in weight. The biggest lesson learnt, is that, it feels "Soooo Good" walking around with 14 pounds less than at the beginning of the year. I also have learnt that sometimes it is better to just take each day one step at a time. In the back of my head, my goal is to weigh 150 perfect pounds; but for now, I'll settle for weighing 200 lbs by December 20, 2010. The day I head home to Nigeria.



In the time since I started this blog (back in February) I have learned a lot about myself. I have learnt to love my body, love my look and love my life. It may not always be perfect, I might not be able to do that 5 mile run next to my skinny friends or sisters, but I'm beautiful in my own way. It took me a while to come to this conclusion. I hope it occurs to you sooner.

Your Happy & Progressing,

Buxom Beauty

I Love Me - I Love Me Not!!!!! (227lbs)

When I logged on to the blog today, I did it with the intention of canceling it. Closing it down and trying hard to forget the pain I felt when writing. The one comment I got has egged me on though. I will love myself. I am going to find out ways (because I am a Google addict) and I will start to love myself. I have started doing the Nutrisystem diet as of Tuesday the 16th of February. It's been 2 days and this time I have lost 3 lbs. It feels good but I have definitely begun thinking.

Is it really about the weight? Or again about self esteem and self-love. I remember not too long ago, for about a space of two weeks, I felt invisible....in a good way. I felt gorgeous and sexy and as fit as a fiddle and I am guessing that guys around me could see it too... I got asked out no less than 6 times by totally different people in the span of 2 weeks. It was weird and yet felt great.

I realized after watching Monique's ghetto but fun movie "Phat Girls" last night that if I can't love myself now, who is to say that I will when I lose the weight? If you are out there reading this, and you have ideas or have heard of ideas to begin in self-love? Please pass them on. The few times I have stumbled upon the feeling has done wonders for my life.

Forever Your,

Buxom Beauty

PS (Just a thot)... I recently remembered that Marilyn Monroe was a size 14 after watching "Some like it hot"