Thursday, February 18, 2010

I Love Me - I Love Me Not!!!!! (227lbs)

When I logged on to the blog today, I did it with the intention of canceling it. Closing it down and trying hard to forget the pain I felt when writing. The one comment I got has egged me on though. I will love myself. I am going to find out ways (because I am a Google addict) and I will start to love myself. I have started doing the Nutrisystem diet as of Tuesday the 16th of February. It's been 2 days and this time I have lost 3 lbs. It feels good but I have definitely begun thinking.

Is it really about the weight? Or again about self esteem and self-love. I remember not too long ago, for about a space of two weeks, I felt a good way. I felt gorgeous and sexy and as fit as a fiddle and I am guessing that guys around me could see it too... I got asked out no less than 6 times by totally different people in the span of 2 weeks. It was weird and yet felt great.

I realized after watching Monique's ghetto but fun movie "Phat Girls" last night that if I can't love myself now, who is to say that I will when I lose the weight? If you are out there reading this, and you have ideas or have heard of ideas to begin in self-love? Please pass them on. The few times I have stumbled upon the feeling has done wonders for my life.

Forever Your,

Buxom Beauty

PS (Just a thot)... I recently remembered that Marilyn Monroe was a size 14 after watching "Some like it hot"


  1. That's my girl!

    Send your mail address. Will send you some books that can help u build self esteem.

  2. Thanks Wale, Could you post them on here? I can't figure out how to send you an email (or get your email address). I am sure it will come in handy for others too.

  3. Wow 3lbs in less than a week, very impressive...i had not even read dis post when i commented on d previous one....PLS DO NOT CLOSE THIS BLOG!!! lol...dont worry we'll encourage each

  4. To adifferentnaijaspec,

    I am so humbled that you have decided to read this blog. I promise to keep writing, and maybe we can lose this weight together. I am finding that writing this blog and keeping a food diary that measures my calories for me is helping greatly. Please let me know if there is anyway I can help or support. I plan on making this blog a real and thorough journey recital. Discussing even the emotional aspects that many people don't understand.

    Ok let me stop before I turn my reply into another blog.