When I logged on to the blog today, I did it with the intention of canceling it. Closing it down and trying hard to forget the pain I felt when writing. The one comment I got has egged me on though. I will love myself. I am going to find out ways (because I am a Google addict) and I will start to love myself. I have started doing the Nutrisystem diet as of Tuesday the 16th of February. It's been 2 days and this time I have lost 3 lbs. It feels good but I have definitely begun thinking.
Is it really about the weight? Or again about self esteem and self-love. I remember not too long ago, for about a space of two weeks, I felt invisible....in a good way. I felt gorgeous and sexy and as fit as a fiddle and I am guessing that guys around me could see it too... I got asked out no less than 6 times by totally different people in the span of 2 weeks. It was weird and yet felt great.
I realized after watching Monique's ghetto but fun movie "Phat Girls" last night that if I can't love myself now, who is to say that I will when I lose the weight? If you are out there reading this, and you have ideas or have heard of ideas to begin in self-love? Please pass them on. The few times I have stumbled upon the feeling has done wonders for my life.
PS (Just a thot)... I recently remembered that Marilyn Monroe was a size 14 after watching "Some like it hot"