Tuesday, February 9, 2010

Rock Bottom - Never Again (230 lbs)

I decided today to begin in writing a blog. I don't really think any one will read this... But I believe it helps to put my feelings down in writing and maybe it will help in making my goal more reachable. Today I reached my heaviest weight ever. I got on the stupid scale and rang in at 230 pounds. I am a 21 year old female at 5ft 4inches. I am Nigerian American and a recent college grad working at one of the top 4 accounting firms in the world.

I have so many times in life where I feel low, hate myself, my image, my weight and all my shortcomings on top of it. But there are times when I feel invisible and happy... maybe even content. Days like today I wish I could simply flip a switch and become anorexic or bulimic, but alas even that, I am not disciplined enough to achieve.

I am tired of being tired.... Tired of being frustrated and sad and in the same place in life. I have decided to do something about this.... weight problem, fatigue, fear of health issues and I am going to lose weight in any way possible.

Game plan: Starting on Monday February 15th, 2010 I will start my Nutrisystem Diet

I will follow the food plan to the tee and incorporate hydroxycut hardcore pills with exercising for a hour 3 times a week. I will lose his weight and live a good life even if I have to die trying.

Yours truly,

Buxom Beauty


  1. At least you have identified the challenge and you are determined to fight it.The battle is half- won. More power to your elbow. I pray for His strength.

    But girl, you have got to love "yourself"- I mean the real you, not your overweight carcass. If you dont love yourself, (nobody will do it for you) and you loose all the confidence in life as a "man"

    You are the best being. You are unique. Nobody can be you!. God has a reason for creating you. And the bible says all he created were good- So you are.

    Please go out with that mentality and your perception of life will change.

    Pls, update us. You have a fan in me.

  2. Thanks Wale :) U have helped me to no end. God sent you.

  3. Hey Buxom beauty....dont worry now i have found d blog i will read it, hopefully u'll encourage me so do not stop updating....we are kinda in d same boat, jst that i'm even heavier 256lb i think i am and taller 5'8....

    u know all d feelings of wanting to become anorexic, bullimic etc trust mei've had all of them...i decided to take action as well...dunno if i can say i've lost any significant weight but i'm glad for once i'm concious of wat i eat....so i'll be glad to go on dis journey with u....PLS DONT STOP UPDATING OOOOO...Goodluck!