I decided today to begin in writing a blog. I don't really think any one will read this... But I believe it helps to put my feelings down in writing and maybe it will help in making my goal more reachable. Today I reached my heaviest weight ever. I got on the stupid scale and rang in at 230 pounds. I am a 21 year old female at 5ft 4inches. I am Nigerian American and a recent college grad working at one of the top 4 accounting firms in the world.
I have so many times in life where I feel low, hate myself, my image, my weight and all my shortcomings on top of it. But there are times when I feel invisible and happy... maybe even content. Days like today I wish I could simply flip a switch and become anorexic or bulimic, but alas even that, I am not disciplined enough to achieve.
I am tired of being tired.... Tired of being frustrated and sad and in the same place in life. I have decided to do something about this.... weight problem, fatigue, fear of health issues and I am going to lose weight in any way possible.
Game plan: Starting on Monday February 15th, 2010 I will start my Nutrisystem Diet
I will follow the food plan to the tee and incorporate hydroxycut hardcore pills with exercising for a hour 3 times a week. I will lose his weight and live a good life even if I have to die trying.